UCAPAN RAMADHAN YANG LAMBAT, UCAPAN RAYA YANG AWAL

assalamualaikum,

lame benar dah tak menulis dekat belog kesayangan mucuk mucuk kepam kepam. maaf. bukan sibuk, bukan jugak tak mampu mencuri masa, cerita betul dia, kemalasan melebihi segalanya. mahu log in blogger pon malas.

maaf sekali lagi.

so how's your ramadhan? its been a great month for me. though, im gaining weight, but thats okay. ...........no, its not okay actually. badan dah macam orang beranak lapan, padahal calon suami pon tader. macam mane cerita die badan macam kene pam pon aku tak tahu mane punca. jalan terakhir untuk masalah berat badan ialah, redha. nak exercise, naik tangga turun tangga rumah pon dah mengah, mende nak bersukannya.

sekejap je dah selamat nak sebulan berpuasa. pejam tak pejam, dah selamat setahun aku masuk degree in legal studies. diam tak diam, dah selamat di email pon result tu. blegh. Old story. next month dah boleh balik tongsan (rumah sewa bucuk bucuk), lepak dengan hausmets yang perangai masing masing macam mintak tazkirah, dan pergi kelas, belajar. bahagian last tu cerita bohong mintak simpati je sebenarnye. ehem

jadi macam mana persiapan raya anda? aku punye baju raya dia buat drama sebabak. sepuluh kali pergi alter, sudahnya, start kereta, pergi ampang park, ambik sehelai baju. done. first time pergi tempah baju kurung, malang tak berbau cerita dia, terus cancel nak tempah dah untuk tahun tahun yang akan datang. aku prefer beli siap,lantak.

Blogger yang lain semua siap post resipi biskut raya, gambar instagram semua biskut biskut raya yang dibuat, post using blackberry gambar gambar baju raya yada yada semua tu. Tapi semua tu tidak berlaku dekat aku. Aku ehem mane ehem reti ehem masak ehem. So memang tade la resipi gambar semua tu. Pasal baju pulak, long story cut short. Aku dah cerita dekat perenggan atas ni ha. Nak tambah tragik, aku mane ade semua bende iphone ke galaxy ke android ke ipad ke. Pad kotex aku ade la. Mane boleh buat instagram bende alah tu.

Kalau dah sebut raya mesti la ada drama nasional bermaaf-maafan kan? Aku ni gaya gaya macam manusia yang dosa dia, berbakul banyaknya. Nak kata bangga diri dengan dosa sendiri, idok le. Tapi nak kata rendah diri tak juga. Manusia. Kene sedar diri dosa yang kita banyak tu. Aku kene mintak maaf kat banyak orang, tambah tambah dengan Tuhan yang ciptakan aku. Allah swt. Dah hidup 20 tahun tapi diri masih tak sedar nak bersyukur. Nasib baik tiap pagi bangun, masih ada nafas yang diberi. Masih ada ibu bapa yang dikasihi. Masih ada ilmu untu dipelajari. Padahal semua tu kalau Dia nak ambik balik sekejap je. Tuan punya blog yang tengah menulis ni, masih alpa lagi dengan hidup dia. Tu baru sebut dosa dengan Allah, dosa dengan manusia sama jugak berbakul banyak.  Kadang kadang aku ni, jenis mulut lepas, sikap kasar. Aku sakitkan hati orang bukan aku sedar.

Jadi, selaku umat islam, aku nak mintak maaf awal awal kalau ade salah silap. Ade terlepas kata. Ade perbuatan yang tak sedap pada pandangan orang lain. Aku pon same je, kadang kadang orang dah tegur bukan aku nak ikut. Aku bantai pakai cara sendiri.  So aku nak mintak maaf. Dekat sesiapa yang aku pinjam duit tapi aku tak bayar lagi, kalau nak halalkan, terima kasih. Kalau tak nak, bagitahu aku. Ada rezeki, aku langsaikan. Owh ekyn, hutang aku dengan kau aku masih ingat. Jangan risau. Aku mintak maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki, dari zahir dan juga batin. Selamat menamatkan ibadah puasa kita, dan juga selamat hari raya.

Ps: malam raya, aku masih berada di rawang. Tolong bersedih untuk aku sekarang. 

KIRANA IS WISHING EVERYONE "SELAMAT HARI RAYA"

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my type of outfits

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BLOCK B

Okay, I delayed the long due post for such a long time. And here it is. Im in my second semester of degree and yet I still took some time off for the sake of fulfilling my pleasurable pastime. Yes, after the jay park’s showcase, I happily went to the opening of kenanga wholesale which featured block-b as their opening performance. Im a happy kid. Though im not a big fan of them but hey, who cares? Its free and worth it. This post will be abundant of pictures during the concert. (Y)

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TEASER UNTUK ENTRY YANG AKAN DATANG-BLOCK B

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A human With Her Anger. Rant full of emotions.

cube teka die tengah rase ape? tettt. die tengah stress sebenarnye. hoik hoik. 

I was not born to cater other people needs and demands.

Never. It hit me quite a few times about this. Maybe those who do not know me personally or not knowing me deep enough tend to make a hasty conclusion that I am such a person. No I'm not, and I will never be one. Why should I?

I'm not that kind of outspoken person in letting out my anger and distress over a person. I'm the quiet one. To be exact, im in those types who conduce to hold back the spiteful feelings rather than deliberately venting it out.

But I found that, I have a large number of enemies that lead me to think that I can now on the same par as hateable artists in Malaysia. Maybe I exaggerated a bit. But that’s what the case and it’s really not that shocking.

Im an amiable person. You can puke afterwards but I really discerned myself to be that way. But maybe people don’t have the same idea as me and they perceived me to be opposite. Some sort of me to be quite irritable to them.  But It is very odd for me to become indisposition towards someone that I just met or knew. What is due to my face? Oh my, tak pernah kot doa muka macam ni. And I don’t think my mother ever doa me to be born with this face. Or is it because of my attitude? Which part of me that you found to be that really discomfort? They way I talk? They way I laugh? Or you are the one that having some sort of attitude problems? Can you please at least have a look of yourself at a mirror once In a while. Just please. Because you cant expect everyone to be that loveable. You yourselves, I think is not that perfect to begin with. Soalan dia sekarang, I have an attitude problem or you have a perception problem?

I know the fact that I cannot expect people to be nice to me, but can't they at least trying to become much nicer and  comprehensible? Since I really cannot stand those people who think that they got this world on their hands and people should opt to follow their way. Yikes! That’s disgusting.

I dissociate myself when it comes to matters like this. Why you should get yourselves involved in anything that may harm you and your heart?  I tried to be reposed and calm, to be more précised, I educate myself to be composed. Its not that I can stand provocation without becoming angry, but if I found such matter to agitate me ,then rather than turning into a monster like I used to, I reformed myself to be such a timid and reserved person. Why? Because I don’t want to cause any troubles. I have my own temper. And those who have known me for quite a long time will know how bad I am to handle my acrimonious attitude.

Just don’t let this thing to fall beyond my limit. It will be no fun anymore. Because, once I feel really repugnance over a person, then my strong sense of antipathy will take place. By that time, in my eyes, you are no longer a human. You can make a conclusion for what kind of creature are you right then before my eyes. I once lost a best friend because of this matter, and I still hold a very strong feeling of bitterness over her. I have a very good memory, if I can still recall my enemy when I was in standard 1, there is a high possibility for me to remember all those spiteful memories when im in my youth also.

And please don’t get into trouble with me. Im human too. Bukan kau je. Ape kau ingat mase Allah cipta aku, dia jadikan hati aku sebelah hidup sebelah mati? Kalau aku bukak mulut kau marah, kalau aku diam pon kau marah. Rase tak diri tu macam ade masalah anger management? So sekarang siapa yang bermasalah? Kau ke aku? 

cube teka siapa dia? tettt. die perempuan yang baru puberty dan baru tahu nak buat simbul rock sebenarnye.

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OFF TO JAY PARK AND THIS IS INDEED A NEW POST

Finally some update on this blog.

Do not worry, the owner still in the pink of her health and do not suffer from any further retardness.

I'm just too lazy to write some new entry. But here’s the good news, the post that you are reading now is indeed a new post! Hooray to that.

There were many things that happened to me but since I cannot spill those things in one post then I shall have you guys enjoy just the bits of it. Can ah?

Firstly, I had my dream come true. For those who are ignorant on my interest, here’s the details. Im a kpop freak thought I never showed it here, but for the people that know me in real life, im pretty much a kid when It comes to kpop. I get overjoyed because of it from time to time.

I'm a devoted fan of jay park. I have been his fan for 4 years already and finally, I got to see him personally during his showcase in Kuala Lumpur. How awesome is that weh? And to make the matter even more exciting, I got the ticket and the pass to both his concert and basketball match for free! (tho I need to pay for the cd) I guess luck was on my side on that day. It was a two day event. the first day was his showcase in KL Live. I was a good and pleasant memory for me to see him perfom on stage and had a glimpsed of his abs (such a pervert natasya) . I almost cry when I saw him at the very first moment. I tend to be such a drama queen at times like this. I tried my best to hold my tears. Hey, who would cry on such trivial matters? Drama sangat la weh.

And the next day, I went to see the basketball match at KDU. It was a mess when we got lost on our way to there. Im not really a good driver when it comes to memorizing the routes and all. Im pretty bad at it. The five of us never went to Hartamas before and for us to rely on google maps alone sure did not make things better. The event supposed to start at 6.30 and at 5.50 we still cant figured on which routes to take. At last, someone with a very good heart help us to show the way. Trimas kepada abang manager petronas. Nnt ittew belanja mekdi okay? Hikhikhik.

  *that smile, pengsan! *

So when we got there, we quickly bought the autograph passes. My heartbeat became too irregular that I almost got my asthma attack. It was really that exciting. My adrenaline went nuts I think. Since during the concert I only got to see him from afar but on that day, I knew exactly that I will get the chance to see him upclose and personally. And yeah, I did. When he signed my cd, I got this courage and spunk to finally disclosed my love towards him. I said that four words. Ehem, It goes like this.

Jay park : busy signing my cd. And when he looked up and smiled to me…

Me : Oh my god, I love you jay park.

Jay park : he smiled ( for god sake, how many times you need to smile huh? I cannot stand that tau tak? ).


And as his lent his left hand towards me I quickly replied that smile and shake his hand.

That was crazy weh!

Im now pretty much a satisfied girl. Though I cannot go to see him during world stage but that’s okay I guess. Hikhik.

Ah dah dah. Jangan complain bahawa aku ni manusia yang gedik dan tidak hebat perangainye. You have your own interest so what’s wrong in me for having one? Garang kan aku? Hikhik. Okaybye, nak pergi tengok jay park and Spazz over that hot body. Biar sampai berdarah hidung. Baru badass.

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HAI, INI BUKAN RANCANGAN MASAKAN

Rasenye dah lame sungguh aku tak update belog ni dengan bende bende yang berfaedah dan post post yang macam agak layak di bace. Sungguh lame. Macam gaya aku pergi bertapa kat gunung dan balik ke Malaysia once in a blue moon utk update belog ni. Sungguh begitu la gayanye.

Jadi aku pon update la sedikit dua. Sebagai contoh macam entry ni.jap aku fikir mukadimah dulu.

Oh ye, macam ni. Aku dah selamat masuk ke uitm. Dah nak dekat sebulan jugak la disini. Okay, mukadimah paling lame abad ni mungkin boleh dihadiahkan kepada aku.  Tapi memang tu je pon cerita yang aku ade. Seronok la jugak rase hidup bujang bile dah selamat masuk part 2 degree ni. Duduk dengan 9 lagi budak retard dalam rumah ni. Retard yang sampai aku tak tau nak explain dengan care yang macam mane. Pastu sejak sejak bawak kereta disini, makin cepat aku berdesup ke sane sini. Makan ikea punye meatballs pon dengan housemates. Pergi uptown shah alam meronggeng2 pon dengan housemates. Pendek kate, semua dalam rumah ni taraf moksha punye forever alone sebab asyik ke hulu ke hilir dengan masing masing.

Bukan tade sape yang nak. Kami jual mahal.

Lepastu sejak masuk sem 2 ni makin sibuk diri beta. Maklumlah, law society tu aras utama yang perlu dipentingkan. Macam kalau diluah mati emak, ditelan mati ayah la kalau tak pergi mesyuarat or tak involve dengan ape2.  Tapi mereka itu sebahagian keluarga, walaupon takde la rindu mane kalau tak jumpe tapi tetap kene ingat di jiwa. Cewah, gaye aku dah macam nak praktis jadi penulis novel ombak tak berapa nak rindu.

Jadi lepas dah bace bende kat atas ape lagi yang korang nak aku khabarkan? Oh ye, aku masih tak pergi buat ape-ape surgery kat muka. Kekangan wang dan waktu. Ingatkan nak ubah jadi macam izara aishah dalam cerita vanilla cokelat, tapi gusar kalau diubah bukan jadi izara aishah entah entah aishah 50sen terus. Pendek cerita, muka aku masih seperti dahulu Cuma apabila ditambah kenaikan berat yang melampau bak minyak ditambah subdisi, jadi aku mungkin dah Nampak macam belon yang dipam gas helium. Gamaknye besar dan gemuk. Tape, aku izzah yang masih mencari haris die. So selagi tak jumpe selagi tu boleh makan melampau. Bile dah jumpe terus pergi masuk gym dapatkan drop dead sizzling hot gojes punye abs. dan cite-cite seperti begitu mungkin akan terus jadi mimpi.

Mungkin.

Dan kepada nina yang mungkin sedang stalk saye ketika ini, ade taik idung dekat pipi anda. Sekian. 

tolong la cakap aku comel. please..... okay, dah bole pergi muntah. 

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Painful Goodbye

Hai there best friend,

the time you read this letter, probably you are already in flight to japan, or you already in Japan.  How time passes. It's been 4 years already.  By the fourth year, you are preparing to leave me behind. I'm cool with that. Or maybe I'm not.

You are like the strength to me. A force to keep me standing strong. Tho we rarely see each other, but the bond between us kept me alive for quite a long time. You are the only best friend I have. The only person I could talk to when things fall hard on me. I don’t talk to other people. The reason is simple, you know me better than anyone else. You don’t look down upon me. Never disregard me in any way that may come as an insult to me. Never.  People tend to mock me since im a bit spoiled and can be like a baby sometimes. You are the only person that embraced me when I acted that way. Im thankful enough to have you in my life.

I might be appeared as clingy to someone else but I don’t mind to act that way when in with you. Haritu masa aku bercakap dengan kau kat telefon before kau naik flight, aku rasa kosong sangat. Macam sebahagian besar diri aku hilang. Orang yang aku selalu call suka hati aku dah nak pergi tempat lain. Mak ai, sedih dia lain macam. Padahal kau nak tau? Aku ade kat McD mase tu. Epic moment habis. Belajar elok-elok ekyn. Ingat tuhan. Aku pon nak berubah. Tengok kau jadi matang die macam slap on the face utk aku. Dulu kite jahat same same. Tapi mungkin aku lebih sikit dari kau. Aku pon nak ke jalan yang baik macam kau. biar ade degree dalam tangan kau dan aku.

Ps: padahal bulan lapan kau balik. Sedih aku macam kau tak balik langsung :’D haha 

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Sape kat sini yang tanak cantikkan? Rasenye jarang la nak dengar yang orang perempuan dekat dunie ni yang kate its okay not to be pretty. It depends I guess. But for me, we need to take care of our outer appearances rather than merely focusing on our inner zen and whatnot.  I think most of you guys have heard of this product called Virgin Coconut Oil. And I want to promote for you on behalf of my sister’s project. This product contain a wholesome of advantages that surely will give you a good amount of satisfaction.

To know more about this product, you can directly contact my sister thru this page. Just click the like button :D 

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INI BUKAN BALDU BIRU, INI KES ERYKAH BADU.

Her name went on fire after her concert in Malaysia was cancelled. Just google about her and you will know all the details. But after reading some comments about her on twitter, I really want to rant bout this.

People out there and most apparently to the muslims,

Can u please just be less ignorance bout this matter? I read comment that saying “im not a fan but concert got cancelled because of a tattoo? Childish Malaysian” my words for you is, go and announce your syahadah for many bizzilion times. How can you make such comment when you yourself is a muslim? She tattooed the word Allah on her body, tattoo is obviously haram and why would people still want to turn a blind eye on this matter?

You can go around saying that “ombak rindu was full of provocative scenes but still be allowed in malaysia” “many muslims in Malaysia don’t act like a muslim at all” all I can say Is that, if you know that you holy religion is islam and you embrace Allah as your only one  God, you would do anything for the sake of protecting your religion. Be it provocative scenes acted by muslims, a foreign singer who doesn’t respected your religion or a bunch of retarded people who are muslim by name only.

Is it wrong for the minister to ban such concert for being held in Malaysia? you never went berserk when maher zain concert got cancelled or an Islamic talk being adjourned to another date. Never. So what’s with the fuss of cancelling one concert that being attended by a foreign singer?

Never ever proclaimed that you are a Muslim when you blatantly protected her and being okay when word  Allah being carved on someone's body . Tattoo is haram , just for the sake of your information. A muslim should never be okay with it.

better kau berzikir dari nak marah pasal bende2 macam ni. kau pergi kutip derma and do something utk syria lagi bagus. 

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AN EXHALE OF RELIEF

Hey there :D

It's been a while already. Fuh fuh. Dusting off cobwebs.  My holiday is getting to its end. Sad? Probably not. Im a bit excited to go back to shah alam again. And guess what, I'm now  officially a part 2 BLS student. Yayy! Hard work sure paid off. Finally the result for my 1^st sem is out. Minutes before the official result slip from uitm gets into my email, my heart was jumping like crazy. Nay, probably the were group of musician playing their beats in my heart to be exact. I thought there’s something wrong with my heart, a broken valve and all. Thank Allah I'm still alive though I hardly breathing the second after I clicked to open my mail. It was nerve wrecking.  This probably the 2^nd time for me to be so scared of getting my own result.  The first one was during my 1^st muet. I survived this time. No wince and whine. 

What people need to know is that, law is not as easy as u think. Don’t mock us just because we fail one or two law subjects. You don’t know how hard it is just to understand and answer the whole jizz of a law paper. I slept for only about 2-3 hours during the exam week. And there were times when I'm not getting even a wink of sleep. Some of my comrades already redha and pasrah.  My concentration was distracted once a while. The bad aura spread like virus. Its hard to maintain my focus during those hard times. I thought I would fail my papers. I did so badly during Law of Tort and Contract. I even left a question unanswered for each respective papers. Which cost me to lose my 20 marks for each paper.  Gladly, I survived. Its beyond my imagination to even get B on those papers but maybe Allah had given me second chance to do better in my next examination.

Oh btw, to a few people out there,

Do not judge us for being swank and conceited. This is a matter of perspective.  Not all law students acted that way. Am I getting too emotional about this? Forgive me If I am. On, and this post is completely in English because of one reason. My English is deteriorating since I have no one to talk to during my two months of holiday. And im pretty much sure that you will find many grammar mistakes in this post.

So yeah, this is all I can share with you. And I promise to keep updating you with a much more fun story in my next post.

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Tears that run down for happiness, a smile that’s been carved to hide the sadness.

Finally, after a long dinosaur years jumpe jugak dengan my favorite girlfriends dalam dunie ni. though we missing another 2 creatures since they both busy. kelas kau jah, aku dah macam kawan dengan retis. sungguhpun ekyn tu dah macam selalu jumpe but since this was like a reunion meet up after almost 3 years tak jumpe each other.  and you know women, kalau tak bercamwhore macam tak sah la kan. we got to indulged in snapping good pictures sampai tak sedar yang kedai yang pada mulanya lengang macam kat gurun sahara tetibe dah jadi penuh macam kat pavi. ah gitu. 

this is like the hardest picture yg kitorang try tangkap. yang paling elok pon yang ni ajo. yang laen, hampeh. dah macam suruh orang parkinson ambek gambar.

 sorang simpan satu. the sweetest gift that day. a picture paint thousand of words can? for me, its happiness. 

 and azirah sibuk sorang orang tangkap gamba die sepanjang masa. insinyur ni macam nak tukar profession je gamaknya.

 yes, me looking fat in both below and above pictures. im gaining weight right now. more like a hobby actually. so dont ask me why i look fat, i would answer it with a punch.

 le new spectacles. love it! 

 munchy grunchy. 

they look yummy to me :) too much love for them. kalau aku cakap aku sayang dorang depan2 kang ade sekor-sekor muntah darah depan aku.  

It was a good meet up.  Catching up some old stories, gossiping over girly stuff. It was fun.  I had always known that somehow and somewhat, you can never go wrong when u have some good friends.  This was actually a farewell meet up before ekyn go to japan. Omg, my heart aches again. I held back my tears though it killed  me when I saw azirah already broke down In tears as she said goodbye to ekyn. 4 years wont be long. I tried to convince myself. That’s the only way for me to survive :)

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