Wednesday, April 20, 2011

entry malas nak mati

 i was wearing : 
vintage dress-no wine and cheese party.
jeans-romp
beg and shoes-cotton on

lame ke weh aku tak hupdate belog?sorry nahhh.semenjak due tiga hari ni aku macam bebal jap dalam mencari idea nak tulis bende jadikan entry belog selekeh ini.aku cadang nak tuka segala header,background  bagai-bagai,tapi broadband aku dah penuh qouta derr.kau hadap je la header aku yang ala ala aku je yang bersinar antara mangkuk mangkuk tu.eh,aku terpanggil korang mangkuk.tak weh,kalau korang mangkuk jamban pon aku sayang :D

okay,dah jauh sangat aku lari tu.
ni nak cerita bende laen sebenarnye.kalu kau rase bosan,kau skip entry ni pastu kau pegi belog orang yang lagi best okay?aku tengah rela hati kasi ni.harhar.dah nak dekat sebulan aku kerja ngan mak cik and sebab mak aku rindu nak tengok anak dara die yang dahukalanya pemalas-ya-rabbi-tatau-nak-explain berubah menjadi anak dara tiptop idaman ibu ibu seantero dunie ni,aku terpakse la pulang.eh tak,part yang ibu rindu tu tipu.hehe.aku balik sebab nak kerja di kuala lumpur pula.tapi,part yang aku ni anak dara tiptop tiu betul.ha ape lagi?masuk la meminang saye cepat :) ngeh ngeh ngeh.okay,stop berjimba sekarang.

berbaloi mak aku hantar aku balik kampung.dari tatau buat air walaupon air masak,aku dah bole buat air yang marvelous kau.sampai nenek aku kate duduk lagi sebulan dengan aku,die bole kene potong kaki sebab kencing manis.comel kan nenek aku?takpa tok,i'll take that as a compliment.ececeh.mau aku speaking londong macam ni kat nenek aku,die baling kuah londang je kat aku.ibu pon aku rasa dah nganga mulut tak tutup lepas dengan mak cik aku puji aku pandai buat kerja.PANDAI BUAT KERJA?RAJIN??HAHAHAHAH.lihatlah dunia,tangan aku ni dah bole menggoncang hati ibu ibu mertua di luar sana.

pastu hari tu aku selamat sudah tengok movie justin bieber.awwww~ kau! aku tengok bieber sekarang. nasib baik 3D,ade la jugak aku feel macam bieber dok hulur hulur tangan kat aku.pastu aku pon dengan pantasnye buat buat macam nak sambut huluran die.takpe gomez,aku dah tade rase nak pakwe kau tu dah.aku stick dengan aku punye pakwe seniri sudah.but its a good movie actually.im not suggesting it for a hardcore movie watchers since you may find it a bit childish,since this movie is not everyone's cup of tea.and yang declared themselves as belieber but still havent watch this then u should change ur name to whatever.weh,bieber kau.mase die senyum maen piano dalam movie tu pon aku dah start cair.

aku haruslah masuk tidur sekarang ye rakan rakan.esok aku keje,bukan macam budak budak matrik yang dah bole berlagha sesuak hati mereka.damm,jeles tetibe.

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Thursday, April 14, 2011

hari lahir lelaki paling hebat dalam dunia.


Assalamualaikum semua,hari ni entry saye sangat personal dan sangat dekat dihati :)
I was born in a middle-class family with no silver spoon in my mouth. Aku tade family yang ade harta berbillion banyaknye,family tade pakai kereta Lamborghini jadah ape sume tu. Tapi aku ade seorang lelaki yang sanggup korbankan ape sahaja asal anak die dapat hidup tak kurang dari anak anak orang laen.
Lelaki tu ayah aku, Ahmad Nazri b Abdullah yang sejak die bisikkan azan ditelinga aku,aku kenal die sebagai ABAH.
Ayah aku tak hensem macam brad pitt mahupon George Clooney, tapi die mampu menawan hati mak aku. Aku tetap rase die lelaki paling hensem dalam dunie. Sebab die ayah aku. Sejak dari aku kecik,makan pakai aku cukup terjaga. Nenek aku selalu pesan, hormat ayah aku walau ape pon jadi. Sampai hari ni,rase hormat tu tak pernah hilang. Abah tak pernah putus cari rezeki untuk bagi makan anak anak die. Mase abah pangkat lans koperal je dulu, die sanggup buat 2-3 kerja sekali sebab taknak ade ape yang kurang kat anak die. Prinsip abah satu, die tanak anak die hidup susah macam mane die hidup dulu. Abah buat sewa kereta, bile hari abah off,malam tu abah jual burger. Manje engat abah. Aku selalu sakit sejak dari aku kecik lagi. Umur dua bulan dah dapat tau aku sakit asma. Ade one time, sebab mak aku tak sedar yang aku dalam buai dah biru sebab terhidu asap, aku hampir-hampir maut. Nasib baik Allah panjangkan umur aku. Sampai hospital,doctor berlengah nak selamatkan aku. Mak aku sanggup sujud dekat kaki doctor tu supaya selamatkan aku. Hari tu jugak kali pertama,kakak aku menangis sebab aku. Hati ayah aku dah pecah macam kene hancur dengan trailer mase aku jadi macam tu.
Sebab nak aku dapat perhatian sepenuhnye, mak and ayah aku gilir gilir ambik cuti tak bergaji jage aku kat hospital sampai la umur aku 7 tahun. Asma aku dah kurang mase tu. Aku masih kecik mase tu,tapi aku selalu diingatkan oleh nenek aku tentang pengorbanan ayah aku.
Aku sangat manje dengan abah,sebab tu name panggilan aku manje. Ayah aku selalu kendong aku pakai kain pelekat die mase aku kecik. Aku asyik melekat dengan abah je. Nak tido pon kene ade abah. Sampai abah pergi semayang jumaat pon aku nak ekot. Macam tu la manje nye aku dengan abah. Bile aku besar,aku jadi lost sekejap. Jadi kuat melawan. Aku sangat rebelled mase dulu. Ape yang aku tak puas hati aku lontarkan ekot suka aku. Abah sikit pon tak tercuit dengan aku. Die sabar dengan perangai anak dara die yang mase tu baru masuk alam remaja. Aku lupe dan alpa mase tu. Lelaki yang aku tinggikan suare tu ayah aku. Lelaki yang tak pernah angkat tangan pon kat aku. Lelaki yang tak sanggup biar satu nyamuk hinggap kat badan aku. Aku lupe mase tu. Sebab sikap aku, ayah aku pernah menangis dalam sujud die dpn mate aku. Besar kan dosa aku?
Aku cube tebus balik semua bnde tu. Aku start study sungguh sungguh. Abah kerja keras nak kasi yang terbaik dalam pelajaran untuk anak die. Abah korban banyak untuk aku. Berkat doa ibu abah, aku dapat 7A 1B mase PMR aku. Abah aku peluk aku sekuat hati die mase aku dapat result tu. Kalau aku ekot sikap aku yang dulu. Satu A pon aku takkan bau. Aku tak dilahirkan pandai , tapi aku percaya dengan usaha. Mase spm, abah sanggup ulang alik hantar aku pergi tuisyen kat kl. Rumah aku kat rawang. Demi anak, ayah aku korban jugak. Result aku tak berapa nak dibanggekan, cukup dengan 6A sahaja. The day aku amek spm tu,ayah aku je teman aku. Aku tunjuk je result kat die, pelukan yang same mase pmr,aku rase mase spm. Die cukup bangge dengan aku.
Abah ikut semua kemahuan aku sampai aku jadi tamak. Aku rase aku nak semua bende dalam dunie ni. Aku lupe ayah aku bukan lah dato yang takkan engat jumlah digit wang dalam akaun die. Ayah aku polis biase. Gaji die cukup untuk bagi makan anak bini die je. Tapi, biarpon mcm tu, Ayah aku sanggup belikan aku sepuluh baju cotton on tapi die teragak-agak setiap kali nak belikan baju untuk diri die seniri. Aku makin besar,aku makin matang. Aku tak bole mintak bukan2 sangat. Aku jumpe care baru nak mintak barang. Kene dapat result elok dulu baru aku bole mintak bende. And ayah aku tak pernah lupe nak tunaikan semua hasrat aku.
Ibu selalu cakap abah paling banyak habis duit kat aku. Betul cakap ibu. Braces, laptop yang keje aku asyik mintak tukar. Handphone yang setiap tahun tukar. Kereta. Cost tuisyen yang beribu2. Kalu aku kira hitung darab bahagi,tak terbalas jasa ayah aku even dengan duit sekalipon.
Macam tu la besarnye pengorbanan abah nak besarkan aku. And sebab tu jugak la, aku sayangkan ayah aku sepenuh hati aku. Hari ni, hari jadi lelaki yang dah bersusah payah,berhempas pulas berikan yang terbaik untuk aku. Abah aku :)
Abah,manje ucapkan selamat hari jadi. Terima kasih sebab besarkan manje dengan sempurna 19 tahun ni. Manje sayang abah :]


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Monday, April 11, 2011

bittersweet moment :')


I got my result today. All praises to Allah for giving me the chance to improve myself and proven others that I can do it. But I feel slightly bitter today, knowing that some of my classmates didn’t make it kinda make me feel like crying. They are my everything, they are more than just classmates and they are much more meaningful than mere acquaintances. Their presences have lighted up my dark dull life. I’m hoping nothing but the best to happen in their future. Maybe law is not their destiny and maybe law isn’t my either.
The happiness I get from the result didn’t last that long when the reality strikes me back, I have one more obstacles to pass through, my muet. I did poorly during my speaking test. Oh my, I really hate it when I had my nervous attack. I’ll tremble so badly like when wind struck a tree. That’s how bad I trembled during my speaking test. Even the examiners and candidates noticed that. Big sigh on that.
My bestguyfriend told me not to worry and focus on this 16/4. He told me that I can make it. But what if I can’t? I know my limit and I know how well my ability is. A good friend of mine said that she shall meet me at the law fac, but what if I didn’t make the cuts? I.  take seriously a word from her, what Allah has destined me to be is surely the best for me. I take a step back and realized that it’s okay if Im not major in law. There are many others field that I can try on. Science politic sounds good and pengajaran bahasa also not bad. Maybe I can succeed in becoming a teacher. Who knows? :)
Still, I have high hopes in law. Like I said before, I’m far from surrender. And I know im not one of them. I’ll try my best. Hopefully luck is on my side. Do pray for me fellas ,I really need a miracle to happen


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Sunday, April 10, 2011

dinner asasi 2010/2011

i miss them :')
 sexiest hero alive(okay nak baldi )
 haah,kitorang mmg suke gamba candid yg hancur mcm ni.haha
 ini wanita wanita pojaan lelaki seantero dunia!
 cinta hati yang paling tercinta
 seronok bile duduk meja belakang sekali
 cantik kan kawan kawan i? hukhuk,puji cpat!
paling cantik haruslah saye.awwww~

kenape kau mesti rebut space aku man???

what i wore : 
dress by teetoo
heels from random stores
clutch - unbranded
cardigan - vintage store in rawang
everything else remixes.

bile aku tatau nak update ape and tetibe rindu time dinner aku post la bnde ni.haha.kepada sesiapa bertanye asal aku menyentel kat semua gamba,ni nak jawab sikit "hoi,ni blog aku' haha :P
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Sunday, April 3, 2011

chic pop : street market 7


 *this is a drag queen.kinda =='* 
The chic pop event has ended. Big yeayy! for me because I made to there. Got lost for a while since I’d never been to petaling jaya before and with all the seksyens they have, surely made my spin a yarn for a bit. Oh my, remind me people that if I want to go to such event next time, I must bring a lot of cash and plastic bag. Stupid me to forget that they already mentioned that we need to bring our own plastic bag. I was alone and holding a bunch of clothes in my hand. How shame it could be. Then gladly when I went to this both, the owner kindly provides me a plastic bag. It just a small bag but I stuffed up all the things I have there.
This what I wore on that day,and forgive that i-want-to-slap-you face. It was hot and the cameraman surely does not know how to take picture. Blame the weather and the camera.
jeans: romp
handbag: teetoo
shirt : romp
shoes and belt: brand outlet stores
The event was GREAT. I bought four items and it just cost me about 100 bucks.Cheap isn’t? I managed to get my tapered pants that I’d been craving for about months at really cheap price. Quick tick on my wishlist. I was worried a bit bout the size since I’ve gained a lot of weight but after tried it on, it fits me perfectly. Apart from that, I bought a dress and a t-shirt. Each cost around 15 something. Now I sound like some kind of promoter.
I think that my attire on that was so sloppy and unsightly compared to others. There were so many beautiful hijabis that dressed up so prettily and I seemed like somewhat did not make an effort at all. Maybe I am. I woke up late and a bit rushed so I just grab what easy for me to match with. What more easier that a jean and a shirt? Tadaa. You have me. That’s why I looked so dowdy that day. With the yellow Syria and untidy shawl.  Everyone looked so pretty on that day. It’s like an event where all the fashionista across the country gather along. I surely will doll up with something much neat compared to what I wore that day if there’s an event like this in the future.Sorry bcoz im so lazy to upload pictures during the event because there are pile of it.
My parents have given me their verbal warning to stop for a while and focus on my muet. I need to listen to them this time since I do not want that verbal warning change to a nonstop babble. So, Bye people :]
 *im not swearing okay*

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Friday, April 1, 2011

Pandora box of love



I’ve had been in and out of love for several times.That is not something to brag about people. Im not that conceited to proud over that matter.This is just a piece of my mind,a confession of my heart.

Looking back at the old pictures kinda brings back the memories all together. It’s been years already but the memories still make my heart aches. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have that kind of attachment with any of the boys anymore. What’s done is done, and what happened in past should stay in past. It just that, I miss the feeling of knowing someone is there even in your bad hair day. I’m out from love for quite a time. This is the longest a think. Its been a year. I still have that desire to have someone i can yearn for. Those tender feelings. You know what I mean right? Talking about this make me blushes a bit. It’s been too long that I started to forget how it really feels to be in love. Im enjoying my single-happy-free life. But at the same time, as human, for sure I have that sensation of wanting someone beside me.
When I’m in a relationship, I love to keep it as low as possible. I really hate a prevalent love where everybody is ought to know what is happening. I’m far from a dauntless girl that can bravely take any chances in her relationship. I want to risk nothing. I like to play safe. That’s the biggest reason why I don’t want a prevalent relationship, because if it failed, I surely do not know how to deal with the sadness when others’ eyes are on me. I hate when people sympathize me. It feels like that im not strong enough to deal with my problem.
I made mistakes before, when I’m in relationship. Few of them were grave mistakes. I took myself back and learned from it. What is wrong and what is right. Probably, during that time, I was confused and careless. I’m still waiting for the right one to come. Maybe an effortless love will stay longer. Let it naturally falls into places. I need someone that completes me. Someone that can hit it off with me from the very beginning. Someone that can give me thrill with his words. Someone who won’t give up on me.
The thing about me is that, if I think that the guy I’m seeing right now is not the right one, I will quickly draw myself out. That’s why I rejected a guy before. But knowing that how my action gave that so much impact to him, made me think a bit. I don’t have the chance to explain to him. I deeply apologize for my action but if I rewind back the time, I still steadfast with my decision except this time, I will explain it first and do it in much better way. I’m not the type that gives hopes to others. That’s why I made such decision. It hurts now but if I held back, it’ll hurts more in the future. You can take me as the villain. It’s okay. But Sooner or later you will realize the reason behind my action.
I can’t stand a long distance relationship. I ended two of my relationship because of the distance. I got scared. Long distance relationship requires a lot from me. It demands my commitment as I need to give my full effort to make it works. Plus, it needs pile of communication. I can’t do both. I can give it a shot by I don’t think it will work. Called me bigoted or a coward, but this type of relationship only applies to some and it does not work with me. I don’t know about the future maybe with Allah wills. For now, I want to avoid it as possible.
Oh my, by posting this, it feels like I’m opening my Pandora box to everyone.


ps:forgive my grammar mistakes.its been a while since im writing in english ;/

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