Wednesday, June 13, 2012
A human With Her Anger. Rant full of emotions.
cube teka die tengah rase ape? tettt. die tengah stress sebenarnye. hoik hoik.
I was not born to cater other people needs and demands.
Never. It hit me quite a few times about this. Maybe those
who do not know me personally or not knowing me deep enough tend to make a
hasty conclusion that I am such a person. No I'm not, and I will never be one.
Why should I?
I'm not that kind of outspoken person in letting out my
anger and distress over a person. I'm the quiet one. To be exact, im in those
types who conduce to hold back the spiteful feelings rather than deliberately venting
it out.
But I found that, I have a large number of enemies that lead
me to think that I can now on the same par as hateable artists in Malaysia.
Maybe I exaggerated a bit. But that’s what the case and it’s really not that
shocking.
Im an amiable person. You can puke afterwards but I really
discerned myself to be that way. But maybe people don’t have the same idea as
me and they perceived me to be opposite. Some sort of me to be quite irritable
to them. But It is very odd for me to
become indisposition towards someone that I just met or knew. What is due to my
face? Oh my, tak pernah kot doa muka macam ni. And I don’t think my mother ever
doa me to be born with this face. Or is it because of my attitude? Which part
of me that you found to be that really discomfort? They way I talk? They way I laugh?
Or you are the one that having some sort of attitude problems? Can you please
at least have a look of yourself at a mirror once In a while. Just please. Because
you cant expect everyone to be that loveable. You yourselves, I think is not
that perfect to begin with. Soalan dia sekarang, I have an attitude problem or
you have a perception problem?
I know the fact that I cannot expect people to be nice to
me, but can't they at least trying to become much nicer and comprehensible?
Since I really cannot stand those people who think that they got this world on
their hands and people should opt to follow their way. Yikes! That’s disgusting.
I dissociate myself when it comes to matters like this. Why you
should get yourselves involved in anything that may harm you and your heart? I tried to be reposed and calm, to be more précised,
I educate myself to be composed. Its not that I can stand provocation without
becoming angry, but if I found such matter to agitate me ,then rather than turning
into a monster like I used to, I reformed myself to be such a timid and
reserved person. Why? Because I don’t want to cause any troubles. I have my own
temper. And those who have known me for quite a long time will know how bad I am
to handle my acrimonious attitude.
Just don’t let this thing to fall beyond my limit. It will
be no fun anymore. Because, once I feel really repugnance over a person, then
my strong sense of antipathy will take place. By that time, in my eyes, you are
no longer a human. You can make a conclusion for what kind of creature are you
right then before my eyes. I once lost a best friend because of this matter,
and I still hold a very strong feeling of bitterness over her. I have a very
good memory, if I can still recall my enemy when I was in standard 1, there is
a high possibility for me to remember all those spiteful memories when im in my
youth also.
And please don’t get into trouble with me. Im human too. Bukan kau
je. Ape kau ingat mase Allah cipta aku, dia jadikan hati aku sebelah hidup
sebelah mati? Kalau aku bukak mulut kau marah, kalau aku diam pon kau marah. Rase
tak diri tu macam ade masalah anger management? So sekarang siapa yang
bermasalah? Kau ke aku?
cube teka siapa dia? tettt. die perempuan yang baru puberty dan baru tahu nak buat simbul rock sebenarnye.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
OFF TO JAY PARK AND THIS IS INDEED A NEW POST
Finally some update on this blog.
Do not worry, the owner still in the pink of her health and do not suffer from any further retardness.
I'm just too lazy to write some new entry. But here’s the
good news, the post that you are reading now is indeed a new post! Hooray to
that.
There were many things that happened to me but since I cannot spill those things in one post then I shall have you guys enjoy just the bits of it. Can ah?
Firstly, I had my dream come true. For those who are ignorant on my interest, here’s the details. Im a kpop freak thought I never showed it here, but for the people that know me in real life, im pretty much a kid when It comes to kpop. I get overjoyed because of it from time to time.
I'm a devoted fan of jay park. I have been his fan for 4 years already and finally, I got to see him personally during his showcase in Kuala Lumpur. How awesome is that weh? And to make the matter even more exciting, I got the ticket and the pass to both his concert and basketball match for free! (tho I need to pay for the cd) I guess luck was on my side on that day. It was a two day event. the first day was his showcase in KL Live. I was a good and pleasant memory for me to see him perfom on stage and had a glimpsed of his abs (such a pervert natasya) . I almost cry when I saw him at the very first moment. I tend to be such a drama queen at times like this. I tried my best to hold my tears. Hey, who would cry on such trivial matters? Drama sangat la weh.
And the next day, I went to see the basketball match at KDU. It was a mess when we got lost on our way to there. Im not really a good driver when it comes to memorizing the routes and all. Im pretty bad at it. The five of us never went to Hartamas before and for us to rely on google maps alone sure did not make things better. The event supposed to start at 6.30 and at 5.50 we still cant figured on which routes to take. At last, someone with a very good heart help us to show the way. Trimas kepada abang manager petronas. Nnt ittew belanja mekdi okay? Hikhikhik.
*that smile, pengsan! *
So when we got there, we quickly bought the autograph passes. My heartbeat became too irregular that I almost got my asthma attack. It was really that exciting. My adrenaline went nuts I think. Since during the concert I only got to see him from afar but on that day, I knew exactly that I will get the chance to see him upclose and personally. And yeah, I did. When he signed my cd, I got this courage and spunk to finally disclosed my love towards him. I said that four words. Ehem, It goes like this.
Jay park : busy signing my cd. And when he looked up and smiled
to me…
Me : Oh my god, I love you jay park.
Jay park : he smiled ( for god sake, how many times you need
to smile huh? I cannot stand that tau tak? ).
And as his lent his left hand towards me I quickly replied that smile and shake his hand.
And as his lent his left hand towards me I quickly replied that smile and shake his hand.
That was crazy weh!
Im now pretty much a satisfied girl. Though I cannot go to see him during world stage but that’s okay I guess. Hikhik.
Ah dah dah. Jangan complain bahawa aku ni manusia yang gedik dan tidak hebat perangainye. You have your own interest so what’s wrong in me for having one? Garang kan aku? Hikhik. Okaybye, nak pergi tengok jay park and Spazz over that hot body. Biar sampai berdarah hidung. Baru badass.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
HAI, INI BUKAN RANCANGAN MASAKAN
Rasenye dah lame sungguh aku tak update belog ni dengan bende
bende yang berfaedah dan post post yang macam agak layak di bace. Sungguh lame.
Macam gaya aku pergi bertapa kat gunung dan balik ke Malaysia once in a blue
moon utk update belog ni. Sungguh begitu la gayanye.
Jadi aku pon update la sedikit dua. Sebagai contoh macam
entry ni.jap aku fikir mukadimah dulu.
Oh ye, macam ni. Aku dah selamat masuk ke uitm. Dah nak
dekat sebulan jugak la disini. Okay, mukadimah paling lame abad ni mungkin boleh
dihadiahkan kepada aku. Tapi memang tu
je pon cerita yang aku ade. Seronok la jugak rase hidup bujang bile dah selamat
masuk part 2 degree ni. Duduk dengan 9 lagi budak retard dalam rumah ni. Retard
yang sampai aku tak tau nak explain dengan care yang macam mane. Pastu sejak
sejak bawak kereta disini, makin cepat aku berdesup ke sane sini. Makan ikea
punye meatballs pon dengan housemates. Pergi uptown shah alam meronggeng2 pon dengan
housemates. Pendek kate, semua dalam rumah ni taraf moksha punye forever alone sebab
asyik ke hulu ke hilir dengan masing masing.
Bukan tade sape yang nak. Kami jual mahal.
Lepastu sejak masuk sem 2 ni makin sibuk diri beta. Maklumlah,
law society tu aras utama yang perlu dipentingkan. Macam kalau diluah mati
emak, ditelan mati ayah la kalau tak pergi mesyuarat or tak involve dengan
ape2. Tapi mereka itu sebahagian
keluarga, walaupon takde la rindu mane kalau tak jumpe tapi tetap kene ingat di
jiwa. Cewah, gaye aku dah macam nak praktis jadi penulis novel ombak tak berapa
nak rindu.
Jadi lepas dah bace bende kat atas ape lagi yang korang nak
aku khabarkan? Oh ye, aku masih tak pergi buat ape-ape surgery kat muka. Kekangan
wang dan waktu. Ingatkan nak ubah jadi macam izara aishah dalam cerita vanilla
cokelat, tapi gusar kalau diubah bukan jadi izara aishah entah entah aishah
50sen terus. Pendek cerita, muka aku masih seperti dahulu Cuma apabila ditambah
kenaikan berat yang melampau bak minyak ditambah subdisi, jadi aku mungkin dah Nampak
macam belon yang dipam gas helium. Gamaknye besar dan gemuk. Tape, aku izzah
yang masih mencari haris die. So selagi tak jumpe selagi tu boleh makan
melampau. Bile dah jumpe terus pergi masuk gym dapatkan drop dead sizzling hot gojes
punye abs. dan cite-cite seperti begitu mungkin akan terus jadi mimpi.
Mungkin.
Dan kepada nina yang mungkin sedang stalk saye ketika ini,
ade taik idung dekat pipi anda. Sekian.
tolong la cakap aku comel. please..... okay, dah bole pergi muntah.
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