Wednesday, June 13, 2012



A human With Her Anger. Rant full of emotions.

cube teka die tengah rase ape? tettt. die tengah stress sebenarnye. hoik hoik

I was not born to cater other people needs and demands.

Never. It hit me quite a few times about this. Maybe those who do not know me personally or not knowing me deep enough tend to make a hasty conclusion that I am such a person. No I'm not, and I will never be one. Why should I?

I'm not that kind of outspoken person in letting out my anger and distress over a person. I'm the quiet one. To be exact, im in those types who conduce to hold back the spiteful feelings rather than deliberately venting it out.

But I found that, I have a large number of enemies that lead me to think that I can now on the same par as hateable artists in Malaysia. Maybe I exaggerated a bit. But that’s what the case and it’s really not that shocking.

Im an amiable person. You can puke afterwards but I really discerned myself to be that way. But maybe people don’t have the same idea as me and they perceived me to be opposite. Some sort of me to be quite irritable to them.  But It is very odd for me to become indisposition towards someone that I just met or knew. What is due to my face? Oh my, tak pernah kot doa muka macam ni. And I don’t think my mother ever doa me to be born with this face. Or is it because of my attitude? Which part of me that you found to be that really discomfort? They way I talk? They way I laugh? Or you are the one that having some sort of attitude problems? Can you please at least have a look of yourself at a mirror once In a while. Just please. Because you cant expect everyone to be that loveable. You yourselves, I think is not that perfect to begin with. Soalan dia sekarang, I have an attitude problem or you have a perception problem?

I know the fact that I cannot expect people to be nice to me, but can't they at least trying to become much nicer and  comprehensible? Since I really cannot stand those people who think that they got this world on their hands and people should opt to follow their way. Yikes! That’s disgusting.

I dissociate myself when it comes to matters like this. Why you should get yourselves involved in anything that may harm you and your heart?  I tried to be reposed and calm, to be more prĂ©cised, I educate myself to be composed. Its not that I can stand provocation without becoming angry, but if I found such matter to agitate me ,then rather than turning into a monster like I used to, I reformed myself to be such a timid and reserved person. Why? Because I don’t want to cause any troubles. I have my own temper. And those who have known me for quite a long time will know how bad I am to handle my acrimonious attitude.

Just don’t let this thing to fall beyond my limit. It will be no fun anymore. Because, once I feel really repugnance over a person, then my strong sense of antipathy will take place. By that time, in my eyes, you are no longer a human. You can make a conclusion for what kind of creature are you right then before my eyes. I once lost a best friend because of this matter, and I still hold a very strong feeling of bitterness over her. I have a very good memory, if I can still recall my enemy when I was in standard 1, there is a high possibility for me to remember all those spiteful memories when im in my youth also.

And please don’t get into trouble with me. Im human too. Bukan kau je. Ape kau ingat mase Allah cipta aku, dia jadikan hati aku sebelah hidup sebelah mati? Kalau aku bukak mulut kau marah, kalau aku diam pon kau marah. Rase tak diri tu macam ade masalah anger management? So sekarang siapa yang bermasalah? Kau ke aku

cube teka siapa dia? tettt. die perempuan yang baru puberty dan baru tahu nak buat simbul rock sebenarnye.


Thursday, June 7, 2012


Finally some update on this blog.

Do not worry, the owner still in the pink of her health and do not suffer from any further retardness.
I'm just too lazy to write some new entry. But here’s the good news, the post that you are reading now is indeed a new post! Hooray to that.

There were many things that happened to me but since I cannot spill those things in one post then I shall have you guys enjoy just the bits of it. Can ah?

Firstly, I had my dream come true. For those who are ignorant on my interest, here’s the details. Im a kpop freak thought I never showed it here, but for the people that know me in real life, im pretty much a kid when It comes to kpop. I get overjoyed because of it from time to time.

I'm a devoted fan of jay park. I have been his fan for 4 years already and finally, I got to see him personally during his showcase in Kuala Lumpur. How awesome is that weh? And to make the matter even more exciting, I got the ticket and the pass to both his concert and basketball match for free! (tho I need to pay for the cd) I guess luck was on my side on that day. It was a two day event. the first day was his showcase in KL Live. I was a good and pleasant memory for me to see him perfom on stage and had a glimpsed of his abs (such a pervert natasya) . I almost cry when I saw him at the very first moment. I tend to be such a drama queen at times like this. I tried my best to hold my tears. Hey, who would cry on such trivial matters? Drama sangat la weh.

And the next day, I went to see the basketball match at KDU. It was a mess when we got lost on our way to there. Im not really a good driver when it comes to memorizing the routes and all. Im pretty bad at it. The five of us never went to Hartamas before and for us to rely on google maps alone sure did not make things better. The event supposed to start at 6.30 and at 5.50 we still cant figured on which routes to take. At last, someone with a very good heart help us to show the way. Trimas kepada abang manager petronas. Nnt ittew belanja mekdi okay? Hikhikhik.

  *that smile, pengsan! *

So when we got there, we quickly bought the autograph passes. My heartbeat became too irregular that I almost got my asthma attack. It was really that exciting. My adrenaline went nuts I think. Since during the concert I only got to see him from afar but on that day, I knew exactly that I will get the chance to see him upclose and personally. And yeah, I did. When he signed my cd, I got this courage and spunk to finally disclosed my love towards him. I said that four words. Ehem, It goes like this.
Jay park : busy signing my cd. And when he looked up and smiled to me…

Me : Oh my god, I love you jay park.
Jay park : he smiled ( for god sake, how many times you need to smile huh? I cannot stand that tau tak? ).

And as his lent his left hand towards me I quickly replied that smile and shake his hand.

That was crazy weh!

Im now pretty much a satisfied girl. Though I cannot go to see him during world stage but that’s okay I guess. Hikhik.

Ah dah dah. Jangan complain bahawa aku ni manusia yang gedik dan tidak hebat perangainye. You have your own interest so what’s wrong in me for having one? Garang kan aku? Hikhik. Okaybye, nak pergi tengok jay park and Spazz over that hot body. Biar sampai berdarah hidung. Baru badass.